Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Wednesday, 9/1/10 - Firmer Fruits

Tiz enjoys the early solitude of Saturday mornings and the silent, still-dark streets resting beneath the lightening sky. The day will be warm but the morning air is chilly and she can see her breath misting the morning air as she walks.

She carries a shopping bag down empty sidewalks on streets free of the weekday clamoring of suburban commuters, across Bradford Street, past the barricades to the farmer's market on Wellington.

She walks the length of the cobblestone street watching vendors unloading, unboxing, unpacking. At the far end she stops at a stall offering teas from places she has never been, never heard of. The woman selling the teas tells her about the tea, its organic nature, its fair-market value, and the benefits of its healthful blends. She brews a pot and Tiz watches the leaves - at first dry and compact - unfurl, expand and bleed golds, greens and browns into the swirling water.

The tea seller watches as the scented steam carries Tiz to lush hills outside of remote villages where woven grass baskets are perched high upon heads over brightly colored dresses and bare feet that raise dust on sun-warmed, red dirt.

The tea is good. Tiz sips it slowly, scans the nearby stalls and looks up at the reddening morning clouds.



The market changes little from week to week but Tiz enjoys the process of moving between the stalls, inspecting the packages, the products, the produce. The tea is light in her cloth bag as she moves toward the musty ripeness of the cheese stand and samples of Emmentaler, Gruyere and Raclette. The nutty sweetness paints pictures of snow-capped mountains that reach up, way high, into clear, cool, blue skies behind her closed eyes.

The cheese adds some weight to the tea leaves in her cloth bag.

While running her fingers lightly over the patina on an old mantel clock she is told that it is an original, one-owner piece that still keeps perfect time. The winding key is taped to the back. She thinks of the clock sitting silent in a damp, cobwebbed basement - some one's grandmother's belongings moulding in boxes as the clock timelessly ages.

Wrapped in newspaper, it is added to her bag.

The fruits, sweet and firm, brighten the morning with jungle reds, yellows and oranges. She feels the moist air beneath wide, forest-green leaves, hears the call of a toucan as an imaginary parrot flies past a ring tailed lemur perched on a limb eating a passion fruit.

She is careful not to crush the fruit under the weight of the clock.

The only stall remaining is as wholesome and healthy as the American Heartland. She peers out over farm loads of freshness - corn, beets, carrots, tomatoes, onions, green beans, squashes - growing alongside a dirt road. Clouds of dust whirl up behind the 1948 Desoto she is riding in. Her father relaxes behind the wheel as the road runs arrow straight between the fields and off into the horizon. Sunlight glitters on the dust entering through the open window and settling on her gingham dress and on her father's fedora sitting on the seat beside her.

Only the firmest and most flavorful are placed on top of the things already carried in her bag.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Tuesday, 8/31/10 - Arthur's Axiom


"Any sufficiently advanced technology is indistinguishable from magic."
Arthur C. Clark




It came to pass that man created life.



As might be expected, he created it in his own image. And, because it resembled him, he grew uneasy with its presence. He gathered together all he had created, found a suitable planet and populated it with his creations.

Being curious, man watched from afar as his creations established themselves and began to thrive.

Many years passed and man's creations began to follow in the footsteps of their creators. Sometimes, the directions they moved in were perilous. Other times, the environment threatened their existence.

Rather than allow them to perish, man intervened and in doing so, established himself as a God to his creations.

"Look," they exclaimed, "He comes from the sky! He flies! Surely he is a God!" They quoted man as best they could and repeated these words to each other in many ways. They used man's words as explanations for anything they did not understand.

Still more years passed and man's creations designed elaborate rituals around what they remembered man saying. They built temples to house their understanding of him and to give residence to his image.

And as man's creations progressed, they too advanced to the point where they could create life.



And, when they did create life, they created it in their own image. They then grew uneasy with its presence and searched the universe for a suitable planet...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Monday, 8/30/10 - The Blessing



"Alice, have you noticed anything different about Gabe?"

"Different? Like what?"

"He seems... overly sensitive."

"I'm not sure what you mean."

"And, I'm not sure I can explain it. Maybe I'm the one who is being overly sensitive. Gabe is a good kid. He is well behaved. He's incredibly bright, gets straight A's."

Alice knows where this conversation is going but asks anyway. "So, what's the problem?"


"Aunt Alice, why is Mom worrying about me?"

"Because she loves you, Gabe."


"I don't know what the problem is."

"So, what is he doing that has you concerned?"

"You're going to think I'm crazy but he finds things. Lost things. He's twelve years old and he has never lost anything. Ever. And if you are around him and you lose something, he finds it or tells you where to look."

Trying to make light of the conversation, "And you are complaining?"

"No! Yes! I mean, sure, it's nice to be able to find things but it's a little creepy that he knows exactly where things are. It's not like we go looking for something and he finds it. If you tell him you've lost something, he just tells you where to look.


"I don't understand why helping Mom find things would upset her. Doesn't she want to find them?"

"Yes, Gabe, she does want to find them. She just doesn't see things the way you and I do."


"He never forgets a name. And I swear that he knows people's names before he is introduced to them. It happened just this morning. We had stopped at the store and I ran into the Averys. I introduced them as Frank and Gloria but when we got in the car, Gabe asked if the Avery's were doing OK."

"I'm sure you had mentioned them before and Gabe just filed it away. Some kids just never forget anything."

"No, this was different. The Avery's lost a son two years ago. Gabe didn't know their last name and he didn't know about their son. Why should he ask if they were doing well?"

"I'm sure there is a reasonable explanation. You probably talked about it and he just filed it away. You said that he never forgets a name."


"Why doesn't Mom talk to me like you talk to me?"

"Because, Gabe, not everyone can speak and hear the way that we do."

"I don't understand."

"You have The Blessing, Gabe. I know it's hard for you to understand now but I promise you that it will get easier. And I will help you. Any time you need me, I will be there. Just talk to me the way you are talking to me now."

"Thank you, Aunt Alice. I love you."

"I love you, too, Gabe."


"You're right, I am probably worrying about nothing. Gabe really is a blessing."

Sunday, 8/29/10 - Recipe

1 peck of smiles
1 large bag of laughter
1 bushel of sweet fruits
a few nuts
zest of lemon (or other bitter fruit)


Spread the smiles evenly across all faces.

Dust liberally with laughter.

With helping hands, mix the remaining ingredients together in a large park.

Heat slowly on a warm summer day until soft and bubbly.

Serve in large bowls.

Will stay fresh forever when stored in an open container .

The healthy sugars in this disk sweeten over time.

Although it is recommended that you make this dish often, the combination of leavening agents allow you to consume as much as you like, as often as you like without depleting the original amount. It has been observed that the more you share this recipe, the more you will have.

Here is what the completed recipe could look like.



Note: adjust the amount of nuts to your liking.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Saturday, 8/28/10 - Arrival



The festival begins today.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Thursday, 8/26/10 - Not My Job



"Sir, can you help me, please?"

His answer was perfunctory but not unpleasant as he opens the side panel, removes the tire iron and carries it to the back of the truck.

Her voice is almost lost in the roar of the unbroken line of rubber-neckers traveling at break-neck speed as she asks him again, "Sir, please, can you help me?"

He lays the tire iron on the flatbed and walks over to the control panel on the other side of the truck. He has done this thousands of times and, if needed, could do it blindfolded. Pull the top lever down and it releases the brakes on the chains, push it to the right and the chains unroll onto the bed with a banging and a clanging that completely covers the thundering of passing cars and trucks.

"It's not my job!" he yells over to the woman, knowing that she can't hear him.

She says something. He points to his ears and shakes his head letting her know that he can't hear her.

Chains unwound, he hooks them to the front of the disabled vehicle and returns to the control panel.

"Please, can't you help me?"

"Ma'am, I would like to help but I have work to do. When I am done here, I have two more disabled vehicles to haul back in. And, seeing as it's Friday, there will probably be a few more before the evening is over."

"But..."

"Like I said, I would really like to help you but I have got to do my job." He pushes the lever to the left and the chains begin to wind back in. He finesses them until the slack is removed but they are not yet pulling the vehicle.

He pushes the lever up to lock the chains in place then walks over to confirm that they are securely fastened to the car. Next, he will use the bottom set of levers to lower the back end of the flatbed down to ground level and to winch the car up onto it.

Before he can bring the disabled car onto the flatbed, he has to put it into neutral and release the parking brake.

He steps over the chains connecting his truck to the car and stands beside the driver's door. "Ma'am, you are going to have to move."

"I don't think I can. I think my leg is broken. Can't you help me."

"I'm doing everything I am supposed to do. I'm not EMS, I just run the wrecker. Normally they are here and gone before I show up. Must be busy tonight."

He hears her crying. He wants to help but he could get fired for that. His job is to move the vehicles. That's all. "Ma'am, if you could just put the car into neutral and release the parking brake, I could get us moving. Like I said, I have two more waiting."

He checks his watch and realizes that he is spending too much time on this job. It's not how he would like to do it but the truck's hydraulics are strong enough to pull the car up even if the brake is set. If she won't move and won't help him then that is what he will do.

He starts back to the control panel on the truck then stops. He does feel bad for her, it's not her fault that the EMS guys can't do their job. "Ma'am, if it will make you feel any better, I will radio back in to dispatch that you are staying with your vehicle."

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Tuesday, 8/25/10 - Conversations Before Carnations



"Music."

"And..."

"How about Sculpture? No, maybe Painting."

"You need twelve credits. Minimum."

"Can I just do part-time, like a half term or something?"

"Not until after you have completed sixty-six credits. Are you sure about the Music and Painting? Last term all of your studies were based in the Arts."

"I like the Arts."

"But you haven't completed any of the core requirements. You can't graduate without them."

"Then maybe I will never graduate."

"Everyone graduates, some just take longer than others to get there. How about taking on some History this term?"

"I know enough about History. Lies told by the better warriors. It's nothing more than a series of justifications for atrocious behavior."

"OK, what about one of the Sciences? Perhaps one of the Physical Sciences."

"Me? The guy who is more Escher than Einstein? I don't think so. Besides, we both know that science only applies to the physical. It's transient."

"You like to think, how about Religion?"

"Same."

"What about one of the Languages?"

"Words. Just words that we attach to things."

"Philosophy. That's almost artistic."

"Oh, please. Philosophy is only thought expressed in language."



"What then?"

"Art! Art is the only pure form of communication. It transcends time, culture, language. Just look around here. What do you see? Art! Why? Because no matter who enters, they will understand, they will appreciate. Art is the only universal language and therefore the only language needed. Besides, I already know all I need to know about those other subjects."

"Knowing is not enough, you have to demonstrate that knowledge. You do that by being tested."

"Well then, test me. We both know that I know that material inside and out. It seems a waste to spend a whole term on something I already know. Can't I just test out?"

"Testing out requires department head approval and you can only test out of one subject per term."

"Can I apply to test out of ... oh, ... how about Philosophy?"

"You would have to talk to the department head yourself and convince him that you are ready to test out."

"I can do that. Who is the head this term?"

"Let me see... Hmmmmm, looks like you got lucky, the head this term is Buddah. You would have had a much harder time with Plato. He was head last term. I'll give Buddah a call and let him know you are coming. "

"Thanks! I can't tell you how much I appreciate this."

"See? If you had taken a Language term you might be able to find the words."

"Very funny."

"So, you want to do every one of your lives in the Arts?"

"Yes, I really do."

"Whatever you do, you have to hurry, your next incarnation date is coming up and you have to have all of your subjects chosen before you head down there again."

"Writing... maybe in this next life I will choose Creative Writing."

Monday, August 23, 2010

Tuesday, 8/24/10 - Wrinkles



Nichole turns and checks herself again in the mirror. She grins wide, her teeth are gleaming. Makeup adds just enough color without being obvious. A few stray hairs pushed back into place and the look is perfect.

She turns. Back is perfect. Turns again. Front is ... wrinkled! Oh, no, the look is ruined!

Probably happened when she was bending over putting on her shoes. The black ones - satin, with six inch stiletto heels and a single strap around the ankle.

She pushes at the wrinkles hoping to smooth them out and only making them worse.

She checks the clock hoping that there is enough time left to steam them out.

No luck. No time.

She had worked so hard on this look and now it's ruined.

There is nothing she can do; she is just going to have to go to work looking wrinkled.

She turns around again admiring the way the heels make her legs look.

The music in the other room ends, the crowd whistles and claps. She hears the first few notes of her opening number and then her name.

She wraps a long black silk scarf around her neck, checks her g-string and pasties, pats the wrinkles on her naked stomach and hurries from the dressing room and onto the stage where a single spotlight shines on a gleaming silver pole.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Monday, 8/23/10 - Raindrop



Edward sits alone at the table and watches people outside the small restaurant rushing by in the rain. They're all carrying bags, briefcases and backpacks but very few have raincoats or umbrellas. He wonders at the manner of impractical things packed into the parcels that these people carry. Why not something useful like an umbrella?

He watches as Holly runs past the window and stops under the portico. She throws away the newspaper she held over her head and shakes the water from her hair and clothes.

Before they leave, he will give her his umbrella. His raincoat has a hood and he is only going one block to the subway, Holly will be walking three blocks to her apartment.

He fights the urge but as she enters the restaurant he checks his watch. It's not to see if she was late - he knew she would be late - but, to see just how late she is. Twenty-two minutes. Rain, three blocks, not bad.

"Daddy!" She gives him a kiss hello. Her cheek cold and damp against the side of his face. "This rain is awful!" She removes her coat and hangs it on one of the empty chairs then looks around, searching.

"In the far corner."

"Oh, yeah." She turns and heads for the ladies room.

Edward watches her. She is beautiful, he thinks, just like her mother.

She returns a few minutes later and studies the menu. "I'm cold and hungry. Something warm would be nice."

"So, how are you? How's the job?"

"Great! Great."

"And Chad, how's he doing?"

"Great." It was the same fake perkiness. "Have you had their homemade pot pie?"

Two things bothered him: Holly had invited him to dinner - supposedly to talk - and she wasn't talking, the other, which bothered him just as much, was that they called it "homemade" when it was made here in this restaurant. He could do nothing about the pot pie but he could find out about his daughter.

They decided on dinner, placed their order and sat a little uncomfortably.

"Honey, is everything OK?"

"Yeah, everything is fine."

He watched the way she shredded the straw wrapper, rolling each little piece into a ball then placing the balls in a small pile. "You seem a little upset. Is there something bothering you? Something I can help with?"

"Oh, Daddy, it's nothing."

"Well then, if it's nothing then it shouldn't be too hard for us to talk through and to figure out together."

She smiled at him, at his line. He was always so practical and she knew that he meant that they could figure it out together. It had taken her many years and lots of tears to understand that for Edward, keeping things working was his way of expressing love. He was never very good with emotions, hers or his, but give him a problem and he would demonstrate how much he cared about you.

"And how are you doing, Dad?"

"Great! Great." They both gave a half-hearted laugh at him mimicking her earlier response. "No, really, I am doing fine."

"Have you seen Mom lately?"

He told her about the lawyers and her mother's recent request for more money. "I'd give her anything. Why does she pay... no, why does she have me pay for lawyers? Why doesn't she just ask me?"

"She probably feels guilty."

The conversation eddies around the divorce before moving along to Holly.

"So, what's happening? Is everything OK with you and Chad?"

"Oh, Daddy, on the surface everything is fine. We get along well. Maybe too well."

"You get along too well?"

"You're not going to understand this but our problem is that he won't fight with me."

Edward considers this, waiting for more. When nothing else comes, he asks the only question he can. "And this is a problem, how?"



"I know it seems silly but if Chad really loved me then he would be man enough not to give in to everything just because that is what I want. I mean, he has to have some ideas or opinions of his own but he never expresses them. If I say the sky is green he will never say that I am wrong and that the sky is blue."

He hears what she is saying. It's not the first time he has heard these words.

"He has no opinions about anything. He says he doesn't care about what we eat for dinner, where we go on vacation, if we have children."

Her words are just echos.

"No matter what I say or do, he agrees. It's horrible!"

Edward knows what's coming next, he's heard it before. He wants to tell her now what he had tried to tell her mother. There were no words then and there are none now. Please, please, don't say that he has nothing inside.

"He's a nice guy but it's like there is no one inside of him. Sometimes I think that he would die without me telling him what to do."

Her words, her mother's words...

"Daddy, are you OK? You're crying."

He wipes the tear from his cheek. "No, baby, it's just a raindrop."


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Sunday, 8/22/10 - Runic Scrawl


Do you remember me?
I am The Kid who had The Dream.

Do you remember how?
The not-much-then is no-more-now.

Thin black threads and sleight-of-truth
Magic tricks held up as proof.

Wonder where the pathway leads,
Stepping stones obscured by weeds.

Stories spiral, out and in,
Reason captive in the spin.

Wealthy wielding golden might,
Children milking their birthright.

Early morning turns mid-day,
Aesop's hoppers working play.

Product of a dream-filled mind,
Human form empty inside.

Still thoughts run deep on higher ground.
Re-create forgotten sound.

Inter-pretend runic scrawl,
Learned to run and not to crawl.

Do you remember me?
I am The Kid who had The Dream.

Do you remember when?
The not-much-now was no-more-then.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Saturday, 8/21/10 - A Far Away Love

Go ahead... do it... that's it, just below your left ear, pull a small patch of hair, straighten it... now, twirl it one way around your finger - good, yes - now, straighten it again then twirl it the other way.

I love when you do that with your hair. You probably don't even know you're doing it but you do it all of the time.

If I told you, you wouldn't understand. You wouldn't believe me. You would wonder how a total stranger could know anything about you.

But I know a lot about you.

I love you.

I've been watching you for a long time. It's my job - a very good job, an important job - and I would lose it if they knew how I feel about you...

How I think about you all of the time.

You are not the only one I've been assigned to watch, there are several others but they are not like you, they don't affect me the way you do. If they played with their hair the way you do I wouldn't notice. But, when you do it...

I would like to show you the pictures of you that I have taken. They are beautiful.

You are beautiful.

I especially like the evenings before you sleep. I like the way the steamy shower softens everything and makes it all look like a dream. Makes you look like a dream...

Like my dream.

And, after your shower, after you have dried yourself, I enjoy watching you lie on top of your bed, naked, reading... and twirling your hair around your finger.

If I could, I would reach out to you. I would touch your soft, smooth, tanned flesh. I would place my face close to yours, smell your hair - the hair that you play with all of the time.

Yes, yes, I would hold you close to me... feel your arms tighten around me as my tentacles, all eight of them, embrace you, caress you, wrap around you.

But, no, that is forbidden. I can never meet you. I can only sit in this ship, spinning around your planet, and love you from afar.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Friday, 8/20/10 - Skylines




Crisscrossing heaven
From end to end



Across the sky
A man-made web



Wire fences
Hold back clouds




Above our heads
They keep us down



Stretched like lines
On a notebook page



For words of wisdom
They patiently wait.


Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Thursday, 8/19/10 - Shopping For Monsters

"Clowns."

"Pardon me?"

"You asked what sells best. Most people want clowns. After that it depends on what is popular in the media. We had a big rush on vampires a few years back when the movie Interview With A Vampire first came out. That waned and now with Twilight we have vampires and werewolves. But, no matter what is happening in the movies, clowns are always a favorite."

"Seems strange. Clowns?"

"People are terrified of clowns. Probably started when they were kids and they just never got over it."

I look around the store once more then down at the little devil that I am holding. "I'm afraid that this is just not not doing it for me. I can't see myself being scared by this."

"What you see depends largely on which end you are viewing it from."

I turn it around, still not seeing what I am hoping for. "I don't know. I was looking for something with a bit more, ummm..."

"This model does have all of the features you requested." He picks up another one, looks at it, shakes his head then returns it to the shelf. "May I suggest something from this rack over here?"

"An implant? Oh, I would worry about that."

"Then we're on the right track."

"That does make sense, doesn't it?"

"I have the implant and, just like the personal take-along models that you have been looking at, this one is fully customizable. Let me see here..." He runs his finger down the questionnaire I had completed. "Your demon should have coarse, tufty hair on the eyebrows and ears. It should have scales on the legs and torso. You prefer paws with cracked, yellowed, craggy claws instead of hands. Add some razor-sharp teeth and a saw-toothed tail... All of these things can be configured on your implant, just the way you hate them."

He let's me think about it for a moment before confiding, "I chose to have red, glowing eyes and phlegmy breathing sounds installed in mine."

He pauses again as I look at prices. I hadn't planned on spending that much. "Implants are a lot more expensive."

"That's true but what's it worth to you to have your fears with you at all times ready to scare the be-jeeses out of you at any moment? And, just in case you were wondering if the implant would reduce the anxiety of losing your little monsters or having them stolen, the answer is no. The implant comes with the fear of loss and theft as a standard feature. The best part is that you know that the fear is irrational - you can't lose your implant and no one can steal it - so the fear is heightened by overwhelming internal conflict and confusion. Whoever designed this is brilliant! Really brilliant."

"I'm afraid that I can't afford the implant."

"That's perfect! I will go ahead and program it with all of the physical requirements you specified. While I am doing that, you can review the phobias you would like to have installed. The base package includes two standard phobias and 4 that you can select from this list." He hands me a long sheet that starts with Ablutophobia and ends with Zoophobia. "Or, you can choose from any of the pre-configured packages on the back."

I turn the sheet over and look at the packages. They all look good to me but I don't want to choose a package that would limit me. I want to be able to add new fears in the future.

My head is buzzing with questions that I am just too afraid to ask. Which makes me worry. Am I buying something that I really don't need?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Wednesday, 8/18/10 - Punctual



... can't think of what to say
elapsed ellipses... hesitate

thoughts stapled somehow run on -
dashing dashes now long gone

sit waiting for what colons excrete:
to sweat, to push, to force, to squeeze;
semicolons set more easily

parenting protection of parens
(herding words like mother hens)

commas, sleeping, curled on the path
words slowed to silence as they pass

A capital stands alone as king
trailed by smaller underlings

[brackets] block and set aside
fenced in words they cannot hide

firmly erect upright upstanding
forthright loud and so demanding!



hunched and haggard under its own weight
is the mark of a question an unhealthy shape?

italics come from Italy
where in Pisa they learned to lean



things we say are bound and gagged
with marks in front and then in back
some curled
some straight
some going "stag"

ironic in the broadest sense
that the smallest mark
brings it all to an end.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Tuesday, 8/17/10 - Living Large



As a diminutive person, I offered no resistance. Winds whistled past my once reedy self.

I was a minimalist who left no impression. Couches neither sighed nor sent up specks of dust when I seated myself.

What little of me there was had worn thin over bean poles and bagged bones. I set my sights on things much bigger.

The transformation started by inflating my dreams, ballooning them to enormous proportions, filling them with hot air, expanding and stretching them then letting them rise, bigger than life, into the sky.

From now on, everything will be bigger, including me!

My voice, once piccolo, is now a low basso profundo.

I have altered my geometry. From a series of points, lines and angles - from sharp-edged squares and rectangles - to circles and ovals. I am now a series of smooth flowing lines, there is nothing straight or pointed. If a turn is needed, it is not done hastily. This body flows, softly, slowly, with a lazy purposefulness. It curves outward and rolls comfortably back in - all ticklish - on itself.

Convictions have followed countenance and beliefs now require cathedrals, basilicas. Churches will not do.

Hair can no longer cover the head that has expanded to hold these bulky beliefs. There is no less hair, just more head. So much that it spills down onto my shoulders: head, neck and chest are one.

And how best to transport my transformed self? Your Honda Fit; I won't. Four wheels to carry all my weight? Wait. No way. I will require six or eight.

My girth is enveloped in mirth. I'm happily wrapped in bolts of fabric. My body sprawls so does my home.

Oh, how I impress now! Beds form a memory of me and couches are cheeky behind me.

Diminutive no more.

More is me.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Monday, 8/16/10 - Here. Now.

This space is not a diary, it is a sketch book.

My life is wonderful but nothing that would interest anyone but me. Except for the things that make you stop...

... and wonder.

Since today was one of those days, I will tell you about it. Tomorrow we can return to more interesting things like what happens when science experiments go bad or what it feels like to live large.



Today's events started in 1994 when I met a man named Louis Ateek.

One of the first things Lou said to me - it may have even preceded "hello" - was that my Grandfather was watching out for me.

Wow! That was powerful! I hadn't really known my maternal grandfather- he died when I was young - and here was a total stranger telling me that he was watching out for me.

Lou's next comment floored me. He told me that I shouldn't be surprised that my grandfather was watching out for me because he had always wanted to move from the cold up north down to Florida where it was warm.

My mother always said that her father would have lived much longer had he moved to Florida.

Lou barely knew me and could have known none of this.

The reason that I was thinking of Lou was that I stumbled across a deck of ABOUKRA cards that he gave me.

Aboukra is the Arabic word for "tomorrow" and the purple box of cards says:

ABOUKRA
Reveals Your Future
Amazing In It's Accuracy
Leaves You Fascinated


I opened the box today, read the directions (it has been 15 years since I have used them), and used the procedure to determine my future.

Each of the cards contains two "disclosures", printed in opposite directions. You go through a process to narrow the deck down to three cards. The disclosures that are right-side-up are the ones that pertain to you.

One of my cards was blank (I told you my life was not all that exciting). Another told of the benefits of releasing grudges. I thought about this one for a long time because I can think of no grudges that I am holding onto.

I will tell you the third disclosure in a moment.

Since I hadn't spoken with Lou since 1996 or 1997 I thought it would be interesting to see if I could find him online.

He wasn't on facebook so I tried Google. And there he was. Listed on the Find A Grave site. Turns out that he died back in 1998.

It was late enough in the afternoon for me to brave the heat so I packed up my camera, jumped on the bike and headed for the trail.

Most times I head south on the trail. Today, for no particular reason, I decided to head north.

Along the trail are two churches within a block of each other. There were interesting cloud formations behind their steeples and I decided that on the return trip I would stop and photograph them.

I continued north, stopped for a drink of water and to take a couple of photographs.



I then headed south stopping at the first church and photographing the steeple and the clouds behind it



then onto the next church.




As I was finishing, a woman rode up on her bike and commented about taking pictures. She stopped and we talked about how beautiful the area is and she mentioned that she likes the view from the bridge and has gotten some very nice images from there.

The conversation did what conversations always do: it wound around and slithered this way and that way until I found myself looking at a book of raw-food photography that she had just published.

And it was amazing!

Her name is Sioux Hart. She is an artist and the book she was showing me contained photographs of raw food recipes that she wrote, prepared, designed then photographed. You can see her work at http://gallery.me.com/sioux.hart

We exchanged email and website addresses and pedaled off in opposite directions.

Things that struck me about our meeting:

  1. I had decided not to bike today then changed my mind

  2. I normally head south on the trail and today went north

  3. As I stepped out of the house to start my ride I stopped to photograph a gecko that is there every day

  4. I wave to everyone I pass but rarely have a conversation with anyone

  5. The process of photographing the churches took less than 3 minutes

  6. Had I lingered at any point or skipped anything, we would have waved but never spoken



I remember a conversation with Lou about always being where you are supposed to be. It seemed that Sioux Hart and I were supposed to meet.

As I rode home I remembered the third disclosure from ABOUKRA. It said that over the next 52 days I would meet people that would be significant in my life and that I would have good reasons to consider myself lucky.

I certainly didn't need ABOUKRA to tell me that I am a lucky man but it seemed very odd to me that having just read this disclosure I should run into Sioux Hart, a phenomenal artist with a wealth of experience to share.

Fifty one more days ...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Sunday, 8/15/10 - Different Perspectives

Today's stories are purely visual.



















Friday, August 13, 2010

Saturday, 8/14/10 - Estate Sale (a story in the making)

The process of writing a story is not a linear progression from concept to creation. Often, it is a mindful muddling through murk and muck that results in something crisp, clean and clear. What you are about to read is one thought for a story that I dictated into a small hand-held recorder while driving. I have tried to include everything that was vocalized (including the pauses, the mutterings and the stutterings).

This is just the stream-of-consciousness that occurred after the initial thought and the tracery through its twists and turns.

I will write this story one day but it will probably be too long for this blog.

Enjoy,
GFK





Estate Sale

I would like to do a piece on an estate sale where...

... there is a portrait of the person who has died. Ummm. Annnd, it-it-it's a painting,... huh..., it's really quite beautiful. It's well done. Ummm. But, nobody pays any attention to it. It gets knocked over. It gets stepped on.

Ummm. This was the owner... of all the things that they're sorting through trying to find a bargain.

The amount of disrespect... shown... as they, as they rummage through all this person has left behind...

And, I don't know how to tell it.

From whose perspective? Ummm...

Or how to tie in that painting and give you the history on it. Ummm, such that their actions DO become disrespectful. Ummm...

I-i--ah-a-a-a if I tell it from their point it's just, you know, something in their way. If I tell it from the viewpoint .... maybe from the owner! who is dead but watching. Ummm, and - and maybe they're, they're -- ooooooh, that's an interesting thought! Maybe they're directing people to different items.

Maybe they can read people's minds - and, and, maybe not even read their minds but, but know who they are and know what they might be interested in and kinda lead them. Whisper to them that they should look here, open this drawer or, you know, look under this.

But in the process... ooooh! and maybe it's the painting that's actually watching them. And they can't leave until... duh, duh the dead person, their spirit can't leave until after the sale is over or until after the picture is sold - and no one wants it.....

And, maybe there's a conversation that goes on in front of the painting... baaaaaa, some people are talking disrespectfully about ... some of the stuff there and maybe the final comments are about how awful this picture is. How, how...... you know... I don't know, something... something not very nice about, about the picture or the person in the picture.

Ummm...

But, but that might work, that, that might do it. That might give me the opportunity to tie everything together if it's the owner, who's dead, who is now talking and directing people and telling them.... where the good stuff is. Ummm, ... And helping them find those bargains.

And maybe keeping other people away from them. May-maybe there's some people who are mean and, and they don't want them to own their things.

I don't know.

It's....

It could, it could work. We could spend some time on that one. Probably not going to happen in an hour. We'll save that for one of the longer works.

Or, uhhh, the longer thought periods. The work itself might still be quite short b-but it may take some time to get the perspective right and the events - each individual event that, that happens in that ... estate sale... ummm, e-e-each one has to be important, they can't just be, you know, a spoon or a fork, there has to be a story behind it that-that somehow ties to the person who's looking for it.

Ummm, a-a-and we ha-have to weave the two lives together: the-the dead person's life and their belongings with the person who is looking for the bargain and their life and how that plays in with them so that it is seamless. So that the two work together.

That will be a challenge.

An-and all of it building up and culminating in wha-what was hopefully going to be a release for this person who is dead ... but, might not in fact be. B-b-b it might be that the release they were looking for isn't coming.

Ummm, or maybe it is. Maybe, maybe that's it. Maybe they... have tied too much to them self and .... the realization that ... nobody wants them, they just want their things.

That might be the point at which the dead person finds release. It's because they were holding on, hoping for someone to want them and nobody really does.


THAT'S KINDA SAD!

But, ummm, it mi-might be the point of the story is-is to not hang onto yourself so hard.

Ummm, and, you know, to allow people to have the things they want and you can't force yourself on someone.

So, uhhhhhh-I-i-i-I'll work on that one.